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My husband hasn't slept 4 or 5 hours in 3 days, he's got to be taking something to keep him going. He's acting like he's 20 years old, making stupid decisions, driving with heavy metal music blaring so loud you can hear him coming before he gets to the house, this is a 46 year old man, not a 20 year old. I'm beginning to wonder if he will ever grow up. He's got us so far behind on our bills, and he has 2 or 3 loans he's paying on. It's ridiculous, I have no security in my marriage at all. If I say anything about anything he does he starts screaming and saying all kinds of hurtful nasty things to me, so most of the time I suppress my true feelings, and just go with what he wants because with my anxiety it's just easier. But now I sick of going along with what he want, I'm sick of hearing the nasty things he says to me, because I disagree with him. I'm sick of being ignored and treated like I'm less than him because I'm not working. I'm trying to get my disability started, but now all the sudden he keeps throwing the fact that he's the only one working up in my face. As far as he's concerned I have no say about anything because I'm not making any money, I'm only worth how much money I make.
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I'm so so sorry alon. Marital stress is the absolute worst. I'm going to send you a PM sweetie. Hugs
I'm am so sorry you are going through this. I am not able to work, and I know how guilty I feel about it, and that's without someone throwing it in my face and making me feel bad about it. That has to be very hard. As for everything else, it sounds like you are both stressed, and that can make people do some pretty crazy things. I feel for you. I hope you qualify for disability. You will be in my prayers.
sorry to hear about your very stressful home life. I have never been married so I don't know much about it. Do you want to stay with him? Hugs!