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Thursday was my birthday. I wasn't in a very good mood for it. My spirits were lifted considerably by the outpouring of happy birthday wishes here and on Facebook. I was kind of surprised and even ashamed that so many of you wrote... I don't keep up at all with anything... but I really appreciated it...
Seems like all the time I find myself having to accept how life is... I understand or think I do... that this is just part of how it will be from now on... but when I try to explain to anyone how while I can find joy and gratefulness for all I have... there's an ache inside of me that is going to be a part of me till I die... everything is tinged with that pain and sadness.... but I am not angry... I'm not unwilling to participate and do what I can for my loved ones... I hate it that you have to know but I'm grateful that you do know what I mean...
Seems like all the time I find myself having to accept how life is... I understand or think I do... that this is just part of how it will be from now on... but when I try to explain to anyone how while I can find joy and gratefulness for all I have... there's an ache inside of me that is going to be a part of me till I die... everything is tinged with that pain and sadness.... but I am not angry... I'm not unwilling to participate and do what I can for my loved ones... I hate it that you have to know but I'm grateful that you do know what I mean...
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I fully understand, Elissa. All the different emotions we carry inside..........and then almost feeling guilty about them. You described it so well, \"...everything is tinged with that pain and sadness...\" Exactly how life is for me also.
Thank you for just being YOU! xxx
Yes we know exactly what you mean.
Sorry I missed your birthday.... HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
Yep, we for sure understand the living in joy while feeling such deep pain. It is our lives now, and always will be as long as we are earth side.
Happy Belated Birthday, Elissa! And thanks for sharing your thoughts - it helps...
Hugs,
Donna
I am happy that you felt remembered and celebrated. No matter how many years we\'ve been earth side to receive good wishes makes our hearts glad. I know it does mine. :)
Wishing you a gentle Easter weekend filled with sweet memories and the opportunity to create some new ones.
Warm hugs,
XO Joanie
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Aww, sweet friend, I am glad you can feel the love of your friends!!! Your journal made me think of a cloud in front of the sun, persistently there - a cover to us always from seeing the sun in its full shining glory. I guess that is how I often feel...!
Sending you more love today,
Leda
Oh Elissa, I totally get what you mean. I feel that there will always be that ache in my heart also until the day that my spirit joins with my son\'s. It\'s just the missing of our children so much because we love them so much.
I hope this weekend brings you some joy and lightness of heart.
With love and tight hugs,
Diane
Oh, you are so right. I am not angry either - but everything else you say. There are times when the bad side of me wants everyone else to feel my pain - and I know that\'s awful. I\'m glad your birthday was okay - it\'s good to know you are thought and cared about. Joanna x
Understand completely....
Makes perfect sense to me. Hugs, Paula
Happy Birthday (even though it is a bit late)!!