THURSDAY

WELL, I HAVE A HUNDRED AND ONE THINGS TO DO AND HERE I STILL SET. I JUST CANT GET MOTIVATED......MY HUSBAND HAS BEEN GONE FOR THE PAST TWO DAYS DRINKING AT HIS SISTERS EVER SINCE HIS STEP DAD PASSED AWAY.JUST ANOTHER EXCUSE TO DRINK...IT HAS ALWAYS AMAZED ME HOW I HAVE BEEN APART OF HIS FAMILY SINCE I WAS ELEVEN YEARS OLD AND THEY WERE MY TRUE FAMILY ALL OF THESE YEARS BUT WHEN SOMETHING LIKE THIS HAPPENS I FEEL LIKE THE OUT CAST...INSTEAD OF EVERYONE EMBRACEING ME ,I FEEL ALL ALONE....MY HUSBAND EVEN ASKED ME WHEN HIS SISTER PASSED AWAY,WHY WAS I CRYING,IT WASNT MY SISTER??BEFORE HIS MOTHER PASSED AWAY I WAS AT THE HOME SEEING HER EVERYDAY,FEEDING HER,WASHING HER FACE AND READING TO HER...YOU THINK AFTER BEING IN A FAMILY FOR THIRTY YEARS,I WOULD FEEL MORE APART OF THINGS...NOT EVERYONE TREATS ME THIS WAY BUT MY OWN HUSBAND DOES..I TOLD HIM TO JUST GO BY HIMSELF TOMMAROW.NOT THAT HE EVEN HEARD ME THROUGH HIS DRUNKEN STUPOR. I KNOW I SHOULD BE OUT LOOKING FOR DRESS SHOES AND IRONING OUR GOOD CLOTHES BUT HERE I AM AT THE ONLY PLACE I FEEL I HAVE FRIENDS ANYMORE.OK NOW THAT TRUTH JUST BROUGHT ON THE TEARS...ACUALLY I AM SO HAPPY WITH ALL THE RECENT HUGS AND MESSAGES FROM PEOPLE ON HERE.ALL OF YOU HAVE TRULY MADE ME SMILE BECAUSE I WAS BEGINNING TO EVEN FEEL LONELY AT DS.I PLAN TO GET BACK TO YOU ,I JUST WANT TO WAIT UNTIL I ACUALLY HAVE SOME MORE TIME TO ANSWER EVERYONE.WELL, I BETTER MAKE MYSELF GET OUT THE DOOR TO GET ALL MY ERRANDS DONE AT LEAST ,THEN I CAN STAY UP ALL NIGHT TO IRON AND CLEAN HOUSE....THANKS TO MY FRIENDS HERE AT DS ,I TRULY APPRECIATE YOUR LOVE AND KINDNESS....