ANOTHER DAY

WELL,ITS JUST ANOTHER DAY AT HOME...AS I LOOK AROUND THE HOUSE I TS A DISTASTER AGAIN.IT SEEMS ALLS I DO IS CLEAN AND CLEAN SOME MORE ONLY TO HAVE IT A MESS A FEW HOURS LATER.I GUESS WITH A HOUSEHOLD OF SEVEN THATS TO BE EXPECTED.I AM GOING STIR CRAZY AGAIN TO JUST FORGET ALL OF THIS DISABILITY CRAP AND GO BACK TO WORK.BUT THEN AGAIN WHERE AND HOW??? I KNOW MY PAIN LEVEL WILL WIN EVERY TIME AND I WOULD JUST HAVE TO QUIT THE JOB..I AM JUST SO VERY VERY TIRED OF BEING AT HOME 24/7 BUT ESPECIALLY OF NOT HAVEING ANY MONEY OR EVEN HOPES OF MONEY IN MY FUTURE.AT LEAST WHEN I WAS WORKING I COULD LOOK FORWARD TO GETTING MY TAXES BACK...I KEEP TELLING MYSELF GO TO WORK NOW AND I WOULD AT LEAST HAVE 4 MONTHS WORTH OF TAXES TO LOOK FORWARD TO.I HAVE ACUALLY BEEN APPLYING TO A FEW THINGS ONLINE BUT DONT KNOW WHAT I WOULD DO IF CALLED.I FINALLY BOUGHT A CAR OF MY OWN AND ONCE I HAVE ALL THE REPAIRS DONE WITH MY MAGIC MONEY TREE MAYBE I CAN START FEELING A LITTLE BETTER ABOUT THINGS.ITS DEFINATELY NOT A NEW VEHICLE LIKE I AM USED TO BUT AFTER HAVEING MINE REPOED .I AM HOPEING TO GET A LITTLE OF MY INDEPENDANCE AND SELF RESPECT BACK.HOW DO I FIND MY WAY BACK TO THE LIVEING????????????