SO TIRED...

SO VERY TIRED OF HIS EVERYDAY DRINKING...JUST WHEN I THINK I HAVE THINGS UNDER CONTROL,HE COMES HOME WORSE..I CANT TAKE THE VERBAL ABUSE AND NEVER KNOWING HOW SEVERE ITS GONNA GET..PHYSICAL ABUSE IN THE PAST AND IS ONLY A STEP AWAY.. HE KEEPS THREATENING TO BREAK THE COMPUTER,SINCE HE KNOWS ITS MY ONLY LINK LEFT TO THE OUTSIDE WORLD...WHO HAVE I BECOME???? A YEAR AGO I WOULD HAVE STUCK UP FOR MYSELF, NOW I DONT EVEN NO WHO I AM....I NEED HELP BUT I AM REALISTIC AND KNOW THAT IS NOT AN EASY TASK.BEEN THERE DONE THAT....IT WOULD BE SO MUCH EASIER TO LEAVE IF I WAST RESPONCIBLE FOR FOUR KIDS AND A HOUSE FULL OF PETS... SLEEP AND NEVER WAKE BACK UP,THAT WOULD BE NICE...NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT,NOTHING TO FIX..