Day 4

Day 4 of the antidepressant increase. I decided to reach out to a church, and to my surprise, when I got there I was very emotional. I have a tough time crying but maybe the increase in meds is starting to kick in? Anyhow, a very nice lady at the church took about 45 minutes of her time just to hear my cry and talk about life. I felt very blessed and am extremely thankful. I need to go give her some chocolates and a thank you card. Better than a therapy session. She even gave me a hug lol. After that I went to the park and took a long walk. It was a beautiful day. I felt this urge to be away from concrete and man-made things. I wanted to be as close to nature as possible. Does anyone else ever feel like that? After my walk I got a massage, which hurts the wallet but I felt like I needed it. My neck and shoulders are always tense. It was great. I dont get to do it often. Now at night I went to spend time with my boyfriend who is a great man and listens and comforts me. I am feeling good tonight. No heavy head, no feeling of being in a fog, and no feeling of being exhausted. To myself when I have a rough time- remember this. Remember that you had a good night. Remember that there is hope.