Pain

Not sure how much more I can take. Spent the entire day in tears. Where and how did everything go so wrong? I felt like the luckiest guy in the world and then I screwed it all up. I miss her so much, I just want us to be together. I never imagined that there could be a pain this bad. I can't control my emotions and just pushes her away even more. I try to get her to talk, to listen, nothing seems to get through. She's so closed off to me. I just don't understand it. How can she be this way towards. I'm her husband. We're supposed to be able to talk about anything instead it's lot's of awkward silence and weird faces. Life without her looks so bleak I don't think that I can bear it.