Emotions go high because of feeling lonely. my depression has got the best of me today im out side so i can use iphone cause they dont work in hospitals. I feel like crying and this usually happens when no medication I feel like im on a rollercoaster that is emotional having ups and downs not knowing where to go and not knowing where to turn. I am doing my best to fight it but its no use Ive been there done that I wish this pain would go away. when this happens its always physical and emotional pain suicide can be next and im scared Ive committed suicide before. I need my bf I need someone I feel as if Im crashing down in a hole and theres noone to pull me out.