I'm really tired of trusting people that stab me in the back. What makes it worse is I'm really fucking stupid, so I allow them to do it time and time again. I really fucking hate myself at this point. I hope life gets better soon. I'm very close to getting back in school, which is just going to be more stress but in the end it will be worth it. I am so sick and tired of falling in love with girls who just fucking hurt me in the end. I honestly don't know if I will ever have a happy relationship. I probably don't deserve one. I didn't do anything to deserve any of this pain. I just wish she would love me like I love her. I feel so fucking destroyed.