im doing well i got a job raising money for firefighter funds other than that ive still been miserable and i have no idea why. i thought if i got a job and something to do during the day to take all my time up id be much happier. maybe its because i havent got my first check yet. im thinking about getting a tatoo. im starting to feel kind of lonley but i guess being single for 3 years will do that to you. not to mention my last relationship ended kind of messed up. i got dumped over the phone after 3 years so its really hard to trust people women especially. i just wish i wasnt in pain anymore. but i remember from going to NA that they talked alot about instant gratification and i know im a prime example of that. i gotta keep doing well and stop expecting to fail. its so hard to think positive when your so down all the time.