everything has been okay latley ive been content as of late im really trying hard not to get angry and depressed over dumb things i cant control. ive been going on alot of walks as of late that seems to help alot. i need to learn how to keep my mind clear and stop thinking so negative. things i wish i had or things i regret or things people have done to me that i still hold in my brain. i need to learn how to forget. i think things could be easier if i had a steady job...although money has never been a friend of mine it would at least keep me busy so i didnt have to think as much. i would really like to quit smoking its such a nasty habit that i wish i never picked up.  i was supposed to quit for my new years resolution but ive just been really stressed out. i havent been drinking as much which is a good thing. lately i havent been enjoying it as much as i used to. i really gotta stop thinking about the past but it haunts me. i shoulda made better choices i got fucked over by so many people women mostly. i cant change it and i need to move on.