just called 1-800-suicide again. life is a fucking joke. whats the point of living if you cant be happy? why am i so tempted to commit suicide but cant do it and its just because with no answer. no one can give me an answer its just that im not allowed to kill myself. they say suicide is the ultimate sin..well fuck that i think life is a fucking sin. we are brought in this world as puppets of tourchure. and people think im fucking crazy when they cant survive without materialistic shit. fuck all this pain. seriously. im seriously considering suicide as a way out...it could be my only way out