will my heart allways ache with pain? does life have a blade with my name? am i on this earth just for my brain and blood to become stains or is this the first push to become ashes from the flames? stupidity and humiliation is about all i feel. so cold and so broken as my tounge touches the steel.its my fault for giving love a second chance. and because of this me and death will have another final dance.your black rainbow blocks the sun that never shines. i feel as though the fact that i breathe should be considered a hate crime. agony has taken over my every feeling. like i should on thumbtacks kneeling or with a knife threw me hanging from the ceiling profusely bleeding. i feel embarrassed to say,when im not out gettin drunk on the street,she made me feel so small that i have to cry myself to sleep. when i was 17,some other bitch broke my heart and i became sadisticly sick. having morbid thoughts and conversations just to get my fix. im afraid now,that the last time i was talking about homicide and rape and shit. i feel so fucked up in my head right now....my thoughts.....i hope i dont do any of it.