depressed

hi to all my dear friends i just wanted to say you are all in my thoughts all the time. i havent been "active" lately on here. i am so deeply depressed. i am sad. after just over a year, the reality is setting in that jessy is really gone, and she is not coming back. my heart is wrenched into shreds. i am sad, i am aching. i am hurting. im on an anti depressent, but im depressed anyway. im just going through a very hard time.i hope you are all okay, and thank you deeply to those of you who do not forget me when i am quiet, and send a hug or a hi. thank you so muchall my love, jan