Dear Kitty,
              It hadn't seemed real until I told someone. It was my fault anyway - but now I can't help but think about it. I don't want to remember, Kitty. I don't want to feel it anymore. I don't want to think about it. I want it to never have happened. Maybe if I'd been stronger it wouldn't have. Maybe if I was stronger now I wouldn't need to worry about it.
              I will be a stronger person, Kitty. I will not disappoint Christopher. I will get over this. And I won't let it affect us.