Dear Kitty,
I don't know what it is. I just feel miserable, and empty. I'm tired and cross and irritable.
I'm angry, all the time. I just feel like I want to flip out at everyone and cry all the time. I want to break something, I want to tear something, I want...oh, hell, Kitty. I don't know what I want. I'm whiny and needy, and I don't know what's wrong. I don't even know what it is. I miss people, people who I haven't seen for a long time, or people who have changd so much that they're not the people I became friends with. I don't even know what it is anymore.
Worrying is taking it out of me. I'm shattered, and I'm still up and down like a yo-yo. Sometimes, I feel amazing and full of energy, like I can do anything that I want to and I can't stop thinking and talking all the time. And then it's back down again, and I suddenly want to cry and shout and just sleep all day. It's like I sometimes can't even be bothered to move because I can't find a point.
Ignore me, Kitty. I have no idea why I'm like this. I hate it. I just want to be a normal, level-headed, sensible person. I want to stop needing to SH. I don't want to feel like there's an enormous empty hole.
I want to stop being me, Kitty. Sometimes, I just want to stop being.
Yours,
Francesca
I don't know what it is. I just feel miserable, and empty. I'm tired and cross and irritable.
I'm angry, all the time. I just feel like I want to flip out at everyone and cry all the time. I want to break something, I want to tear something, I want...oh, hell, Kitty. I don't know what I want. I'm whiny and needy, and I don't know what's wrong. I don't even know what it is. I miss people, people who I haven't seen for a long time, or people who have changd so much that they're not the people I became friends with. I don't even know what it is anymore.
Worrying is taking it out of me. I'm shattered, and I'm still up and down like a yo-yo. Sometimes, I feel amazing and full of energy, like I can do anything that I want to and I can't stop thinking and talking all the time. And then it's back down again, and I suddenly want to cry and shout and just sleep all day. It's like I sometimes can't even be bothered to move because I can't find a point.
Ignore me, Kitty. I have no idea why I'm like this. I hate it. I just want to be a normal, level-headed, sensible person. I want to stop needing to SH. I don't want to feel like there's an enormous empty hole.
I want to stop being me, Kitty. Sometimes, I just want to stop being.
Yours,
Francesca
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see a doctor, seriously. There\'s no point saying \"ignore me\" because you\'ll end up ignoring yourself. Regardless of waht your parents or whatnot would think just go and do it. It will make everything better if you just stop running around in circles and consult somebody. It\'s harsh, but I did it anyway and things got better.
If you really want this to stop, you can\'t just hide and hope it\'ll go away - things don\'t work like that. Instead of worrying about it, face it. I\'m sure, that when you do get help, you\'ll wonder why you never got it sooner.
If not for yourself, do it for your friends. We don\'t want you to stop being.
Stay strong xxx