Dear Kitty,           I'm finding it hard. I expect it's because I'm tired. Last night especially; it got a bit silly and confusing. Basically, I've argued with Hector again and I don't even know what's happened.          I think we got into an argument because none of us knew he was going to America and it was when Steph's party is. And none of us had asked - which I thought was a bit silly; how do you ask about something if you don't know it's happening? You can't just think 'oh, he looks like he's going to America. I'd better ask so I can plan my party around him.' Does anybody actually know anyone who thinks like that? So he said that it was her fault - and really, it isn't anyone's fault - it just happens that two people can't go because of this trip. That's all. So now he's cross with me.  It's silly.           I'm missing people I thought I wasn't going to miss anymore. I cried over them last night - but I've stopped now. It still hurts a lot, but I'm getting better at holding it in now. Otherwise, it's getting harder and harder to hold off from doing 'it'. Which is getting stressful, but if I can keep holding off, then it'll be easier next time.Anyway, better go - time to sleep, and I have to get changed for bed.Yours,Francesca