Dear Kitty, I'm finding it hard. I expect it's because I'm tired. Last night especially; it got a bit silly and confusing. Basically, I've argued with Hector again and I don't even know what's happened. I think we got into an argument because none of us knew he was going to America and it was when Steph's party is. And none of us had asked - which I thought was a bit silly; how do you ask about something if you don't know it's happening? You can't just think 'oh, he looks like he's going to America. I'd better ask so I can plan my party around him.' Does anybody actually know anyone who thinks like that? So he said that it was her fault - and really, it isn't anyone's fault - it just happens that two people can't go because of this trip. That's all. So now he's cross with me. It's silly. I'm missing people I thought I wasn't going to miss anymore. I cried over them last night - but I've stopped now. It still hurts a lot, but I'm getting better at holding it in now. Otherwise, it's getting harder and harder to hold off from doing 'it'. Which is getting stressful, but if I can keep holding off, then it'll be easier next time.Anyway, better go - time to sleep, and I have to get changed for bed.Yours,Francesca
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Well, there\'s no point trying to get all worked up about this whole Hector situtation, because what you say is right and he\'s being really selfish. You say you\'re finding it hard not to do \'it\', but think about it; will it really help you? It\'ll help in the short term, maybe, but it\'ll hurt later, you\'ll feel silly, and you\'ll have another scar... Life is a balance of pros and cons, and there are some things that you can\'t alter, so there\'s no point getting worked up about them. Hector\'s insecure, and it\'s a good idea to be friends with him and help him through it, but if you try and change evreything for him and getting very worked up when he bites back, you\'ll both end up going backwards. The thing you need to learn to do is give yourself time, I can tell that everything is to do with deadlines and expectations with you, don\'t rush life because you\'ll miss out on some things that you\'ll wish you did.
Stay strong xxxx
i love u fran, call me whenever u want to do \"it\" and ill distract u best i can, i love u
xxxxxx