My dearest Kitty,                 I'm sorry for not writing recently. Rather a lot has happened; an English exam, a Maths exam, a Latin Verse exam, a German Listening exam, a visit from Tom over half term, and the removal of a lot of my hair. So, quite a lot.                 But I'm not really writing about any of these; I will do in another entry, but at the moment I don't particularly feel like it. I'm really only writing because I'm rather confused and it's always easier when I've set things out.                 Tom seems to think that something's wrong, and he's right. I'm probably just tired because of all the exams; it's just that a lot of things are getting me down. I know I said I was going to try and be optimistic, but it's difficult when you're tired and...even now, I can't bear the thought of Tom leaving. There we go; I'm being stupidly selfish again, but I really really am going to miss him so much. It's like Oundle just won't be Oundle without him. I know that this won't make any sense to you, Kitty, because it is yet another of my pointless musings, but I really just can't get over it.                  The other thing is that I still wish so much that things could go back to how they were at the beginning of the year; when we were all friends, and we all got on, and it was all so perfect...and now the group really has split. Not only that, but Fraser's upset, and I don't know what I can possibly do to help him. All of these things (and some other things) are just getting me down, and because I can't help any of these, then it's making me feel worse and, yes, I really want to do 'it' again because I feel so useless to everyone. It's difficult, but I'm holding off for two reasons; one, it's really sunny here and I'm enjoying wearing my dresses, and two, Tom and everyone.    There, Kitty; I'm worrying about things I can't help again, but I can't help that either - it's all rather irritating. Again, I'm sorry for offloading all of this onto you, but you really do help. I doubt that anyone else even reads my entries anymore, so I could just write everything in a Caesar Shift Cipher of minus one zmc sgdm mnamcx dkrd vntkc jmnv vgzs H zl szkjhmf zants.I'll write more soon.     Ever yours,         Eqzmbdrbz