Dearest Kitty,             I'm sorry for not writing; it's been difficult recently, and I probably won't blog again until I've managed to get myself in order.             Fraser knows that something's up - how, I don't know - so I'm trying to hide it. And apparently failing dismally. The only other thing is that I'm pretty sure that 'it' is going to happen tonight. And, for once, I'm not trying to stop myself because I know that I deserve every bit of it. And nobody would care anyway.Yours,Francesca