Dear Kitty,          I'm to see Amanda in about an hour and a quarter...if I didn't have to go, then I would be so happy. I really don't want to go; if she tells anyone...it's a terrifying thought. If I didn't have to go, then I wouldn't want to do exactly what I'm going to see her about. Why I ever agreed to go I don't know.          Kitty, if I didn't have to go...oh, so many things that I don't want to do wouldn't be in danger of happening.And you know the worst thing...I'm angry because I don't want to go. Which makes me annoyed at Hector because he wanted me to go. Which is exactly what I don't want; I hate being annoyed with my friends.Francesca