Dearest Kitty,            I really want to talk to someone about this. I don't know who; I don't even know how to say it. I just feel bad. Just low. But lower then I've been for ages...well, three weeks. And I can feel everything building up and I just want to let it out...but I just can't. I know I can't. I'm trying so hard not to let myself, but it just gets worse and worse until I've got to. I don't think anybody understands how hard everything's getting...and I wish that there was someone who did. I'm living more and more inside my head, and I'm trying not to come out, but I know that as soon as it happens again then I shan't be able to go back for ages.             This probably doesn't make any sense to anyone, and I don't know if even I understand it. I just want someone to be there for now...someone real. Francesca