Dear Kitty,             Samson has just sent me such a nice email...and yes, it did make me cry. I've forwarded it to my two best friends ever; I don't think either of them will read it, but it really is beautiful. Actually, Hector probably will read it, but Fraser will probably just delete it straight away...             The whole thing is basically about how someone is always thinking of you. It's really pretty, and it really just makes me feel like...I wish that I could actually believe that there's always someone thinking of me. I'm going to save it forever...I suppose that the best thing is that Samson sent it to me. He has forgiven me (I think) and that's an even better thought than anything in the email.             As for Fraser...he is definitely avoiding me, and I don't blame him. My other friends just keep telling me that he's just being childish, but he isn't...and it's all my fault. I know that he won't ever want to be friends again, but just to think of that or believe that fact. That's one thing that I can't do. I can't let go of it. I'm trying to, and I'm trying so hard to accept it...I'll get over it in a while. One day.            If he doesn't speak to me soon (apart from during Drama), then I'll know that he definitely hates me, and then there won't be any way of escaping that. No amout of imaginaion or making up stories will take my mind off that. I don't blame him for hating me...if I was him, I would hate me too. I'm not surprised...but it;s still so hard to grasp that fact.           I need to give up. I have to stop dreaming.           But I don't want to wake up from the dream world. I can't. How can I just let go of everything?            I think I need to talk to someone...but I'll get through somehow. I love you. Francesca