Dear Kitty,            Ok, so it's been about sixteen hours. And I still feel terrible, especially since I've blanked Fraser all of today, which I know I shouldn't have done...and I feel so guilty about shouting at him on Facebook. That was really stupid of me. And now I know that he doesn't like me at all...why should he, especially since I hung up on him? I don't know what to do about anything now.             I probably feel like this because I only got about six hours sleep last night (and the night before, and the night before...it gets very tedious after a while) But I just had so much to think about...and I won't pretend that the prospect of ending it all didn't run through my mind. Or that it hasn't today. In fact, I'm still contemplating it...but I know I can't. For Katie, for Freya, for Isla, for Charly...and, perhaps most of all, for Fraser and Hector.I'll write more later. Francesca P.S. About sixteen hours...