Dear Kitty,            Me again, and now I'm feeling even worse. Chinese this morning was fine; I wasn't late (for once) and we finished 'To Live' (it's a film). And then we had Drama; the first bad thing that happened today. Fraser is still ill - I know that because something happened today that is completely out of character for him - so I'm still worried about him. I hope that he gets better soon. The rest of the morning was fine, apart from the fact that I was very preoccupied and worried. And then I got back to the house for lunch, and I had a VERY angry email from Mr Gibbon saying things like 'You have an obligation to the music department and you have to come to orchestra'. Which was not great and I got very stressed out over it. And then a whole heap of other stuff happened, and I guess it's just because I'm tired, but I feel like, exuse my French, merde. I really hate days like this. Oh, and then, my best friend (well, one of) has broken up with her boyfriend, so now I am very worried about her, because I really can't let anything happen to her. And I'm so worried that something will.              And I am absolutely exhausted, and I have a feeling that something VERY bad is going to happen soon...and we all know what I mean when I say that. Especially with all that's happened today. I hope that tonight I'll finally fall asleep before half twelve...but that hasn't happened for a long time. I'm just so worried about everything...everyone. Especially since I don't know what to do about any of their problems. I really wish that I could talk to someone...especially since the uges are growing again, and it's so hard to control them now. I want to, but I don't know how. It's so hard...my hands are actually shaking.I'll write more tomorrow; I really need to go and do some Latin...and distract myself.I love you. Francesca P.S. I still don't know if it's been nearly four weeks or almost thirty six hours...and I don't care. It'll probably end up being twenty four hours this time tomorrow.  I can't see the point in not doing it anymore. Nobody would care if I did, anyway.