another day
Well here we are again.......... Tuesday..... Day 107.
been a long week. As you know.....been waiting and waiting for autopsy report from the ME. I called them on the 15th of Oct. they told me it had been finished up a week ago and she'd mail it out. well the 22nd came and still no report....... so I called back............ oh look at that she says..... it's right here on my desk. ( I wanted to give her a good talking to........but refrained from doing so.) making a parent wait like that is just unacceptable. I'll get it in the mail in the 'morning' she says. Well yesterday it finally showed up........ Told myself that I wasn't going to read it. Well I made it until noon today, and then read it. I don't understand most of it........ which is probably a good thing. and I don't think I want to know. Just needed to get it off to the insurance company.
Remember when I told you I thought Brandon's dad and his hag wife would get Brandon's grave-marker without me? well guess what.......... I hit the nail on the head on that one. Yup they got his grave-marker without consulting with me AT ALL. I guess deep inside I didn't think that the SOB could be that evil....could he? well yup he is.
just as much I guess. what's done is done. I can no longer worry about what that POS does or doesn't do. Brandon is gone, and he cannot hurt him. He cannot hurt me. There is no reason for me to even consider him a decent human being. Brandon is in my heart and I am his mother............ neither him or his POS wife will EVER take that away from me, although they would try if they could!
Got a new bed.......... my old one was 18 years old.......... guess that time slipped away quite fast. anyway the new one is a king size......... I can lay sideways on it and not reach the ends! (i'm 5'2") so it doesn't take much. .. ***insert snicker here*****.......
Stewart continues to grow like a weed. He was at the vet on the 17th he's 4 pounds already! he got his shots......... the poor thing hid under the covers and didn't come out for almost 24 hours. I took him out and set him in his litter box and that's the only time he was up. The shot's knocked it right out of him. poor kitty. of course by the second day he was back to his crazy kitty self. I put this app on my phone for kitties. they're suppose to 'play' with it. and when they tap it with their paws it takes a picture. Had some fun with that. Stewart took his first selfies. makes me laugh. I'll had some to the album
I hope everyone is having a wonderful week. Love and Hugs
Lisa
been a long week. As you know.....been waiting and waiting for autopsy report from the ME. I called them on the 15th of Oct. they told me it had been finished up a week ago and she'd mail it out. well the 22nd came and still no report....... so I called back............ oh look at that she says..... it's right here on my desk. ( I wanted to give her a good talking to........but refrained from doing so.) making a parent wait like that is just unacceptable. I'll get it in the mail in the 'morning' she says. Well yesterday it finally showed up........ Told myself that I wasn't going to read it. Well I made it until noon today, and then read it. I don't understand most of it........ which is probably a good thing. and I don't think I want to know. Just needed to get it off to the insurance company.
Remember when I told you I thought Brandon's dad and his hag wife would get Brandon's grave-marker without me? well guess what.......... I hit the nail on the head on that one. Yup they got his grave-marker without consulting with me AT ALL. I guess deep inside I didn't think that the SOB could be that evil....could he? well yup he is.
just as much I guess. what's done is done. I can no longer worry about what that POS does or doesn't do. Brandon is gone, and he cannot hurt him. He cannot hurt me. There is no reason for me to even consider him a decent human being. Brandon is in my heart and I am his mother............ neither him or his POS wife will EVER take that away from me, although they would try if they could!
Got a new bed.......... my old one was 18 years old.......... guess that time slipped away quite fast. anyway the new one is a king size......... I can lay sideways on it and not reach the ends! (i'm 5'2") so it doesn't take much. .. ***insert snicker here*****.......
Stewart continues to grow like a weed. He was at the vet on the 17th he's 4 pounds already! he got his shots......... the poor thing hid under the covers and didn't come out for almost 24 hours. I took him out and set him in his litter box and that's the only time he was up. The shot's knocked it right out of him. poor kitty. of course by the second day he was back to his crazy kitty self. I put this app on my phone for kitties. they're suppose to 'play' with it. and when they tap it with their paws it takes a picture. Had some fun with that. Stewart took his first selfies. makes me laugh. I'll had some to the album
I hope everyone is having a wonderful week. Love and Hugs
Lisa
Replies
Knowing how difficult it is to receive the autopsy... Deepest of sighs...
So sorry that your ex has to be so difficult and now as you said you hopefully do not have to have him in your life at all. To not consult you, Brandon\'s mother, is just unbelievable, yet it doesn\'t sound as if you were the least bit surprised with his actions. :(
Grateful you have your little Stewart and what JOY they bring. Those vet appointments are never easy that is for sure.
We have a king bed and I love it. Had to get that size for all the fur babies as well as us. LOL! Enjoy yours.
Have a gentle rest of your week, Lisa, and aways good to hear how you are feeling and doing.
Heartfelt hugs of care,
XO Joanie
{{{HUGS}}}
Lisa, it is true that no one else can hurt us after our loss. Hopefully you can make your own private altar for Brandon. I know of some who do that and it is a good alternative to going to the cemetery. In reality, they are in our hearts, our children. Hugs to you, Kathy
Kala\'s ME reports remains unopened, and always will. I figured, what\'s the point of knowing specific details that would most likely just bring further pain? On the rare occasion that I open \"that\" box of stuff and see the envelope, I always have a deep sigh and exhale....a little stab to the heart. I haven\'t looked in \"that\" box in a couple of years....may never again. Again, what\'s the point?
Girl, you don\'t want to get me started on ex\'s!!! LOL! My DH ex chose to have no part of Kala\'s cemetery marker.....only to complain that I was taking too long to have one placed! (It took me about 8 months or so to design and also to let the ground settle). He was fuming mad, but not willing to contribute a nickle.....nor has he ever placed flowers on her grave. He\'ll really be pissed once I remove the vase all together, which I\'m thinking seriously about doing. Enough as our precious Abby would say!! That\'s more than enough energy spent on ex\'s for one morning!!
I too have a king sized bed and love it. It\'s hard sleeping in a smaller bed when we go on vacation or spend the night with friends. I get reminded that I actually have a husband in the same bed!! LOL!
I can just imagine Stewart taking selfies!! How funny!
Thanks for sharing and I wish you a lovely day filled with joy and peace my friend!
Hi! I was able to read through the autopsy of my son and did understand almost all of it. It was horrifying. As for the ex! I have one too and I can\'t get rid of him - how can it be that even after our child is dead he can not stop trying to mess up me and my life. Advise brace yourself, he ain\'t going anywhere...it is a nightmare....mine is still after me 6 years later!
Wishing you some peace. I didn\'t have an ME\'s report and I\'m glad. I think it would be incredibly difficult to read.