7 months since Smokey has passed away - let's honor his memory.

It has been seven months since Smokey passed away.  I am still breathing and am alive.  I don't know what you all have experienced but sometime I pray that God takes me home as I do not want to continue on without Smokey in my life.  This is not the journey I wanted for myself.  I have to confess that this is the most hardest, most challenging and most difficult thing I had to do is to continue living without Smokey in my life.  This is a night mare which I am slowly waking up from.   I am sure you all will agree with me that our husbands were all one hundred percent unique, special to us, the love of our lives and our soul mates.  How can we continue on without them but cruel fates have dealt us a horrible hand.  There is a saying "if you have lemons make lemonade."  How do we turn our horrible hand of fate around into something positive.  I would like the answer to this question.  After my baby grandson Tyson was born, I decided to turn my horrible experiences into positive things.  We are all now widows.  I would like to be a free spirited, kick up your heels and have fun kind of widow.  I want to be a merry widow.  Merry being happy not the other kind people imagine.  I have to learn to be an independent, free thinking, open minded and open hearted kind of widow.  Our lives are not over without our husbands.  We are still living.  We are dealt this horrible hand and to honor our husbands make the most of it.  How can we honor our husbands in our lives?  If you find some one else to love, it is not dishonoring your husband.  If you chose to remain a widow, you can honor your husband this way as well.  We knew our husbands inside and out so only we know how we can lives our lives to honor them in soul and spirit.  For me it will be eventually finding someone to love and make me happy.  This is what Smokey wanted for me and  this is how I can honor him and his memory.   I challenge all the widows/widowers out there to think of ways to honor your husbands/wives.  when I say widow this also includes the widowers who lost their wives.  This is my thought for the day. 
I know we honor our loved ones thru our journal writings in daily strength.  I meant a more practical way by honoring our loved ones in our lives that we are living today.
 From Diane Baillie