7/19/2014
Thought i was doing better. Thought I was past hurting. Evidently not. I'd been doing so well and now I am crashing again. Crying a little. Mostly down in the dumps and moping. I've got to get out of this town away from him.
In other news, I DID have some extra money in my bank account I was planning to use for my rent for August to give me some more time before I have to move out, hoping to get a job instead of having to stay with someone for awhile. Had to put car in the shop and it's going to cost pretty much the whole cushion I have. AND I've been turned down for unemployment. So now I'm getting worried.
I have some money coming in that will be enough for a good while, just not sure when I will get it. Have a job interview Tuesday in a town about an hour away. Thing is, I was supposed to interview with them last week, but I got cold feet and cancelled saying I had an emergency. They said to call when I got back, but I didnt. A week later they called me again.
Have not started packing or anything. The apartment is such a mess, I dont even know where to start. It overwhelms me. I have so much to do, I need to stop pouting and get busy
In other news, I DID have some extra money in my bank account I was planning to use for my rent for August to give me some more time before I have to move out, hoping to get a job instead of having to stay with someone for awhile. Had to put car in the shop and it's going to cost pretty much the whole cushion I have. AND I've been turned down for unemployment. So now I'm getting worried.
I have some money coming in that will be enough for a good while, just not sure when I will get it. Have a job interview Tuesday in a town about an hour away. Thing is, I was supposed to interview with them last week, but I got cold feet and cancelled saying I had an emergency. They said to call when I got back, but I didnt. A week later they called me again.
Have not started packing or anything. The apartment is such a mess, I dont even know where to start. It overwhelms me. I have so much to do, I need to stop pouting and get busy
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So sorry to hear that you feel as though you are crashing. It is a horrible feeling but you seem to be a strong person from past posts and I know you will pull through soon. Were you planning on moving to somewhere near the job that you are interviewing for? Go on the interview and see what it is all about - it may be just what you want and need. Things work out in time - take one day at a time and try to do something every day so you don\'t get overwhelmed. Sometimes when I feel overwhelmed I end up doing nothing at all and feel worse. Good luck on Tuesday!
Hugs,
Donna
Thanks, Donna. I\'m going to move to where ever I get a job. It doesnt matter where and I have no preference, though I assumed I would move farther away from him than 1 hour. AND it\'s a town where he goes shopping some times. Still, I think it will be ok if I get this one. I\'m not telling him where I\'m going or when I\'m leaving. I\'m just going to go. Change all my numbers, etc. If/when he starts looking for me, I dont think he will think to look so close to home. Just blah. Weekends are hard. I still believe I did the right thing in quitting my job and I believe if I pay attention I will be guided to where I am supposed to be. I can\'t see the big picture. Yeah, I\'m thinking I might go through my closets tomorrow and get rid of some things and pack up my winter clothes. Thanks for listening.