Well here it is another Friday. I don't like Friday's very much anymore. I know its been over a year but it sure doesn't feel like it some days. The last couple of weeks have been hard for some reason. I think its because I'm here by myself so much. When I was in Pa. I was around my family all day and I always had something to do. My dad was in and out of the hospital and then he was home for good so there was always something going for him. Now I'm back home and I don't have the family around. I have things I should do but lots of times it just to much effort to make myself do them. I do the stuff that has to be done and just let other things slide. I have to do better at that. On the other hand BJ let me know last Thursday that he is still looking after me. On Thursday morning I was talking to his picture....it sits right beside my chair. I was telling him that it had been a while since he had been to see his old mom and it was about time he popped in. That night when I went to take the dog out I looked up at the stars....I do that every night and talk to BJ....that night I looked up and there were two bright flashes of light. It wasn't a star or a plane. Just two bright flashes of light and then it was gone. I know it was BJ since everything he has done has been in two's. I sometimes wonder if it was because he was killed about two o'clock. Anyway it was nice he let me know he was doing okay. Well my 4 legged daughter is telling me she needs to go out.