This morning feels much more difficult than most.. and I just woke up.. I'm trying really hard to keep positive but it's not easy.. I'm not giving up though.. I want to make it through this..  I want to get better.. but I'm scared something may happen to ruin all the progress I feel like I am making... I just don't feel like myself right now.. Not my happy self or my depressed self. Hopefully this feeling gets better as the day goes on.. Hopefully by tomorrow I'll be feeling okay again.. Gonna give it hell trying..