Suicidal thoughts get worse by the hour.... I've been crying off and on for the past 24 hours... Every time I think I'm good, it starts all over again.. breathing feels nearly impossible... I'm not handling this very well.. Been around my family all day and yet I still feel completely alone.... I'm trying so hard to pull myself together.. I'm not doing too well.... I want to talk to someone.. But I know I'm not gonna be a very good person to talk to.. will just bring everyone down.... It's probably for the best...... I can't stop thinking... It's not helping..  I'm reaching my breaking point...  And it's really scaring me.. I don't know what to do... people keep telling me to talk to them when I feel this way.. but.. I feel like I'm just bothering people or upsetting them and I Don't want to do that... Just want to go to bed... At least when I'm asleep I don't normally feel this bad...