Sigh....

I am feeling weird... On one hand, I feel okay.. On the other, I'm still depressed..
I'm trying to keep acting okay.. But it is hard... I keep shutting down... more and more.. It is getting hard to talk to people. even writing this is difficult... ): I can't think of what to say to even simple things..I catch myself ignoring people because I don't know how to respond... It is physically difficult to speak... I just don't want to talk anymore... at all.. But I have to... But I worry soon I won't be able to foorce myself to.. It will just cause a lot of drama... v.v I don't know what to do.. Don't feel like dealing with everything anymore....