My mom....

I can't stand my mom and my sister is pretty low of my favorites list too... I don't want to be like them...  My mom was telling me she hated me at a very young age.. one of my first memories is her telling me she hated mecause  I was crying and making her mad....  she convinced me my dad was a monster and had me hating him til i was 13... She  once told me things would be better without me around.. She tells me i can't do anything... That I'll never succeed and if i get excited about something and wanna work hard to achieve it all i hear is how it's gonna be sooo hard and i probably wont make it..
She tells me how I'm so overweight.. When I get excited bout losing weight all I hear is how I'll .never stick with it and I'll fail... Then she rubs it in how she's losing weight and I'm .not... (she hardly eats and always has diarrhea..)  She treats me like shit constantly.. I could go on for hrs...