Day 17

I'm pretty upset right now. I have this awful homework and almost no support from my classmates. There is this guy who is being an idiot, he is not helping me and I'm almost sure that he is mad because I'm asking for his help. I mean, come on, I'm not asking for too much, besides, it's also his work. Anyway, I'm going to have to make a great effort and do my best. I'm going to make it with or without his help. 
However, I'm tired ans sick of this homework, I'm upset and I feel frustrated. I really like F but my feelings aren't as strong as the ones I had for C. Also, our relationship is far away from what I had with C. I guess it still makes me angry that I almost had sex with C and that it could have been perfect but it wasn't. I don't know anymore, maybe I'm just in a bad mood right now and that's why everything sucks.
Porn is still on the table, I have to fight this but to be honest, I do miss it sometimes. I miss the feeling, the pictures, the sensations, it was like a break for my whole body. I would feel awful after it but rested somehow. I'm not giving up anyway.
 
Today I didn't masturbate.