Day 16
Today I wasted so much time but somehow I managed to do something.
I'm feeling sad because I want to do so much but I can't, I'm still so weak. My weakness is still keeping me from being normal. My stupid homework is so long and I can't finish it. It's driving me crazy. And I still want people to like me but sometimes it is very hard to do. I don't care for now but it sure is a headache when someone doesn't like you.
My addiction is being louder now. I keep thinking of pretty girls and stronger thoughts are going through my mind. My stupid classroom partners are also guilty about that, like this one showed us a picture about this naked lady with her body painted, and there was a picture of the same lady without paint but mainly naked.
Beauty is bad for me too. Today I had lunch with A and she is a little pretty, for a moment I felt like kissing her or hitting on her. Then this other pretty girl,also named A sit by my side when the classes were about to start, she was nice in her own weird way but nice anyway. I was trying to look good for her but fortunately, nothing happened, she didn't even show any interest in the end. I feel terrible about all this because I have a girlfriend and I really like her, the last thing I want to do is hurt her. I'm tired, frustrated, horny and sad, the worst thing I could do right now is look porn and masturbate, unfortunately, I kind of miss how it feels. I have to be strong, I have to be strong. I have to be strong
I can't believe it's been only two weeks,it feels like a month. Ninety days seems so much right now. Better go to sleep.
I did not masturbate
I'm feeling sad because I want to do so much but I can't, I'm still so weak. My weakness is still keeping me from being normal. My stupid homework is so long and I can't finish it. It's driving me crazy. And I still want people to like me but sometimes it is very hard to do. I don't care for now but it sure is a headache when someone doesn't like you.
My addiction is being louder now. I keep thinking of pretty girls and stronger thoughts are going through my mind. My stupid classroom partners are also guilty about that, like this one showed us a picture about this naked lady with her body painted, and there was a picture of the same lady without paint but mainly naked.
Beauty is bad for me too. Today I had lunch with A and she is a little pretty, for a moment I felt like kissing her or hitting on her. Then this other pretty girl,also named A sit by my side when the classes were about to start, she was nice in her own weird way but nice anyway. I was trying to look good for her but fortunately, nothing happened, she didn't even show any interest in the end. I feel terrible about all this because I have a girlfriend and I really like her, the last thing I want to do is hurt her. I'm tired, frustrated, horny and sad, the worst thing I could do right now is look porn and masturbate, unfortunately, I kind of miss how it feels. I have to be strong, I have to be strong. I have to be strong
I can't believe it's been only two weeks,it feels like a month. Ninety days seems so much right now. Better go to sleep.
I did not masturbate
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