Day 15

Today was fine. I managed to do some homework but I still wasted a lot of time. I like the idea of setting my cellphone to ring every seven minutes to remind me to stay focus. It's gonna bee damn annoying but I think it's for the best. 
Things are going great with F but my problem is starting to bother me again. Like, I keep wondering about what would happen if she and I had the chance to be alone in a private place. I think about how to bring up sex in a conversation. I don't like that, I want to be normal,not a perv.
Today I also read something about what girls like about guys in bed. I kind of bumped into that article, really. However, just reading a little made me horny. I missed porn so much and I felt like giving it a try. It's been 15 days but it feels like a lot longer than that. I'm fighting the desire now. It's so hard, 90 days feels so long. And I'm scared that after ninety days I go back to the old bad habits. I'm scared, it feels like a part of me is saying: "After ninety days you can have a break and masturbate and watch porn as much as you want". I'm not giving up, 90 days means that I have found the strength to fight this sick addiction and it also means that I can keep fighting and never, ever again watch porn or masturbate. I hope everything goes well.
 
Today I did not masturbate