OKAY feeling better dammit.  I have been in a total funk the past few days and the journal entries are fairly dark things of late.  One goes down and comes back up but the hard thing for me is coming to terms with 51 years of aspbergers that was left untreated in a mild state.  I am a high-functioning case which is tough but it is shedding the recently inherited TONS OF GUILT that gets me down.  I'm human and would be something less if I did not get just DAMN BLUE sometimes.  So it goes.