A little more fear now ... emotions are setting the stage for a job loss and hunt, so panic is in the background.  I fear that I psychologically am still engaged to Aon - the firm I was employed by on 9/11/01 when, as a survivor of the 101st floor, south tower, I judge every subsequent job by this emotional standard and collapse it.  If so, recognition of this is a major step away from that job.  I hope so.  It always seems as if that job, that family as it became, is still part of me.  The survivors of that day have a tough time of it and I fear that this is a residue effect.