Wednesday, a week later. A dolesome day and watching unemployment with a keen eye. As my last depression group posed, I was feeling poor again (still am) but my point about being or feeling as suicidal as I was in November got me some responses. In therapy last night, I theorized that in some ways it is a method for the mind to drastically re-dress and re-balance the playing field. Suicide thoughts are when coping skills go out of balance. By making the possible something to consider (it is a horrible thing to consider), the coping skills are balanced back. OH NO, YOU DON'T WANT TO DO THAT??? So it bring the system back to norm. It's an interesting view.