11/17: Incredible how every morning I wake up at 4:40 with stress. Even with a good interview, I still cannot sleep a full night, still think sometimes about suicide, money worries and cannot return to sleep. Actually feeling horrible because of it.

12:42 pm - no phone call yet from the interview and NO calls from the 80 resumes I have out there. Very very stressed.

5:19: No phone yet again, and the neatest irony for the day is the company was I was fired from last week sent me an "Income Protection" form!!! Can we put more salt into the wound?