Day 4

My how the time flies by. Today there were more ups than downs. This morning my ex sent a Scripture to my text message. I was just happy to get anything from him. So I texted him back a quote. He responded that he really liked it. He sounded a bit cheery in the text, so I was lifted from that. I didn't have too many breakdowns at work today.
I definitely need to make my way to a doctor though. I hope it's nothing serious. The guy I cheated with my ex on called me today. I don't want to hate the guy, but he has no remorse for distracting my relationship. He seriously thinks I still want to talk to him. I just want an STD test from him at this point. His poor wife...I wonder if she has a clue or even care. 
Anyways, so I talked to my ex for awhile tonight he reassured me that the talks have helped him deal through this. His whole message to me was to work on myself and take care of myself because if I continue down this path, I can ruin my name in the workplace where I worked so hard to get to. Man, he is so great. If I can just tell myself everything happens for a reason, then I can accept this. Right now, I can't. One day at a time, guys.