I'm good. I ended up thinking about the "R" word yesterday. I was able to go out with friends, play with a stray cat, and play volleyball, so I was good most of yesterday and am not depressed...but I do feel some kind of way. I don't know if I should try and explore my feelings, or should I just suppress whatever it is I'm feeling. It's not an overwhelming feeling, so..........Idk. Maybe I will journal more later. For now, I'm ok though. 
But I do have stuff I want to explore.......whether I journal online or by hand, I need to explore some ideas and touch on some feelings. My goal is to open up and to find/be my true self...I'm doing better, but Idk...I need to keep trying and fighting all the time.
 
For now though, I can't stop listening to You Me At Six and Oil Sykes "Bite My Tounge" :) LOL!