Why do I care so much about him? I think I'm gonna really work on letting go. Yes, I want to stay in God's will, but does God really want me with someone that has broken my heart so badly, obviously doesn't want to be friends with me, and someone I can barely trust? Why would He do that? Even if me and my ex does end up together, why would God want me to wait around for him now, when he's with someone else? What is His plan? 
I wish I knew...I'm gonna do what I feel is best for me though. I'm gonna let him go. If God really wants us together, He'll work it out somehow. For now, I'm going to really work on TRULY letting him go. I say all the time that I need to and I will try to...but this time, it's imperative that I do this. I HAVE to move on. I can't be held down by an unrequited love that may not possibly even be worth fighting for.....so yeah...this summer, I have some changes to make :)