When life doesn't seem to be going the way that it should go....the way you expected......or even the way God seemed to have told you it would....then what do you do? Do you not care? How do you let go of someone you love so much....someone you want to spend the rest of your life with.....how do you let him go and let another woman pull him in more and more. 
He wants me to stay in his life...that's obvious.....no matter what either of us say or do, he always comes back looking for me through a text, phone call, message, or  whatever...he wont let me go.....and I really don't want anyone else......so what do I do? 
For now, I decided not to care...but it does hurt. I decided that no matter how much I want to talk to him everyday....I will send him a good morning text and wish him a good day....I will text in the evening to see if his day is going good so far....and I will text at night to tell him goodnight and sweet dreams. I will care for him and just watch him from afar. He's not mine anymore. And I hat that so much. I'm so angry and sad that I'm starting to feel sick. I don't feel like eating....and my period just came on, so I'm cramping too. I've been crying over him for 4 years....it's time to stop and accept reality. 
I already knew life sucked. I knew that people leave. It's so easy for people to leave me. I thought he would be the one person that truly loved me.....but in the end, just like everyone else, he doesn't care. 
So I don't care. Maybe I'm not supposed to be happy...whatever. If God wants us together, He will fix this....but I'm just going to be his friend, and quietly hope that maybe we will end up together.