I don't hide on purpose....it's just never the right time to talk about it. When opportunities come up, there is always something blocking the way. Sometimes I can't even look people in the eye, because they may try to peek into my soul....they may try to get a glimpse of the feelings I don't feel or the ones I don't understand. What if they look at me and see where I've been.....what if they see the pain that I've lived? When people look at me, it scares me.....not because I want to hide, but because I just don't want to be seen. I want to be alone....but at the same time, I want to be free from it all...................I'm tired of hiding, but there just isn't a good time to come out..........I wish someone would come find me. Where are you? I know you're out there.......you are suppose to be with me. You are the one for me...my other half............where are you????? PLEASE, PLEASE find me!?!? I can't come out alone....but with your encouragement, maybe I can then.............I know I can confide in you. I know it's safe to love you. I know you'll protect me. I know you'll be there for me.........so why aren't you here now? PLEASE, PLEASE FIND ME NOW!!!! PLEASE, HELP ME! Can you please search for me, reach out to me, and embrace me.....I know you're out there, and I know you can feel my calls.....so please, find me. Open up to me. Love me. Want me. Be with me. Protect me. Hold me. Understand me. Treasure me. Lust for me. Attract me. Make me want you. Make me lust for you. Make me want no one but you! Be mine forever. Marry me. Stay with me. Adore me. Grow old with me. Let me help you. Be there for me. Let me support you. Back me up.........just find me and be who you and I both know I need you to be. Be my soulmate.