I feel better today. Yes I want to lose weight, but I will continue my no meat (when I do eat meat, its only seafood) diet, no soda (except for MAYBE on Thu nights, Fri, and Sat), and I will start exercising and stuff. I burned over 120 something cals tonight. Ima keep pushing myself to do more. I'll try to stay away from too much carbs and I'll try to eat mostly small meals. This way I'll lose, but in a more healthy way than if I starved myself. 
I'm trying to be my best............I want to get to a place where I am comfortable with myself and love all of me....