..........W.E.
Is it just me, or is love overrated?
Wow........so I found true love...the one fore me....the one I know deep down inside, that we were meant to be...........but he doesn't want to be with me anymore. He says "maybe" we'll end up back together. He says he still loves me........but he wants to be single-he wants to talk to other people. He says he doesn't want a relationship right now, but he wants to talk to other girls.....just talk.......but he only sees me as a friend. It's been a little over a year and a half, and he still wants to be single. He wants to be sure he's not making a mistake.....so is being with me a mistake?!?!?!?! We were together 2 YEARS! Yeah we had our ups and downs, but they were nothing we couldn't fix! I never ever loved anyone as much as I loved him (not before or after being with him). I never opened up to anyone the way I did him. I never trusted anyone the way I did him. I knew God put us together.......I knew we were meant to be..................................so if he still loves me, and I can't get over him, and we were made for each other, then why doesn't he want to be with me? Why does he still insists on being single? I feel like I'm falling apart. I miss him so much. I cry almost every night now, because I've reached my limit of patience it seems. I miss being able to freely love him, and know for sure he feels the same way about me. I's not fair................why can't anything ever go right in my life? Why can't I just be happy!?!?! Is that to much to ask for?
I feel like I am a mistake. I feel like I will never be good enough for anyone or anything. I'm starting to get tired again. It's funny....God delivered me from my depression. It was really over. Non of my triggers worked, and no matter what happened, I might get sad or upset, but NEVER depressed.......................but now, I feel closer to becoming depressed again. I'm fighting it, but I kinda want to give up. I almost don't care if I become broken again. My heart is broken right now......but my soul isn't............even if it was, would it matter at all? Why can't life be more simple? Haven't I been through enough? Why this!?!?! And why now!?!?!?
Wow........so I found true love...the one fore me....the one I know deep down inside, that we were meant to be...........but he doesn't want to be with me anymore. He says "maybe" we'll end up back together. He says he still loves me........but he wants to be single-he wants to talk to other people. He says he doesn't want a relationship right now, but he wants to talk to other girls.....just talk.......but he only sees me as a friend. It's been a little over a year and a half, and he still wants to be single. He wants to be sure he's not making a mistake.....so is being with me a mistake?!?!?!?! We were together 2 YEARS! Yeah we had our ups and downs, but they were nothing we couldn't fix! I never ever loved anyone as much as I loved him (not before or after being with him). I never opened up to anyone the way I did him. I never trusted anyone the way I did him. I knew God put us together.......I knew we were meant to be..................................so if he still loves me, and I can't get over him, and we were made for each other, then why doesn't he want to be with me? Why does he still insists on being single? I feel like I'm falling apart. I miss him so much. I cry almost every night now, because I've reached my limit of patience it seems. I miss being able to freely love him, and know for sure he feels the same way about me. I's not fair................why can't anything ever go right in my life? Why can't I just be happy!?!?! Is that to much to ask for?
I feel like I am a mistake. I feel like I will never be good enough for anyone or anything. I'm starting to get tired again. It's funny....God delivered me from my depression. It was really over. Non of my triggers worked, and no matter what happened, I might get sad or upset, but NEVER depressed.......................but now, I feel closer to becoming depressed again. I'm fighting it, but I kinda want to give up. I almost don't care if I become broken again. My heart is broken right now......but my soul isn't............even if it was, would it matter at all? Why can't life be more simple? Haven't I been through enough? Why this!?!?! And why now!?!?!?
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