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When I get back in school, I'm going to counseling. It's free. Plus I do need it...but Im nervous. sometimes I feel like people look through me, & not at me...& when I talk about my problems, it makes me wanna hide. Sometimes I feel like running away from them...I feel ashamed, embarressed, completely exposed...and I find it hard to talk....it feels like everything in me is holdin me back....sometimes i feel choked & as much as i wanna speak, i jus cant...i dnt kno wut the counselor will say if i act like that...maybe she'll feel like im wastin her time....if its even a she....im so nervous.....but i gues ill deal wit it when it happens....but i have to get in school first.