How am I supposed to cope, when all my tools were taken from me? How am I supposed to get better, when Im trapped in this stupid cage called life? Words cant really explain how I feel right now. Maybe it's cuz I dont know how I feel. I used to wanna die.....but then I found music, I had my pets, friends...so instead of death, I just wanted to go to the hospital. I wanted an escape that never came. and now, I dont want anything but to go. I want to leave, but looks like thats not happening either.  My music is gone, my friends, and everything else I had to cope has left. I haven't been to church in 2 or 3 months. everytime I try, something happens to keep me home. Im trapped.  I thought if I started school, things would get better, and it did....but not much...life still sucks. Im stuck at home livin with my parents....I just turned 20....no car, no way to escape... all I got is hate, anger, disapointment, agrivatation...........and nobody seems to care. Im so tired, all the time...I feel.....