I dont have a sanctuary no more...my safe place I would go to, the people I would turn to...it's all gone. I don't have anything, & nobody understands what Im feeling...I cant even try to express myself no more, cuz it hurts to bad...I need something to help me cope... my life feels like its living with out me...I feel...almost out of control...I try to stay in control, but it seems like everything I touch crumbles...I don't know what to do...I feel so lost right now...and this time, I feel completely alone sometimes...